thank you black label

drama ulet =p

i am quite proud of the fact that i have a high tolerance for alcohol. out of the several situations that i have had myself drunk, i can say that i have come out relatively unscathed and with minor booboos. but now i have discovered the drink that should just be wiped out of my system for my own protection - dear mr black label.

i was relatively fine drinking red wine and baileys and i knew that i could still take an inventory of what was happening when i did the stupidest thing and decided to drink the DEARest drink. And then that's when i lost it, all the worries and emotions that have been haunting me came crashing down - couple that with Him singing my song piece in the karaoke. i just wanted to cry and get myself away from him. which i did- i spent the rest of the night crying myself out in the pool and running around the place when i felt him within the radar.

as told by my dear procurement friends, and from the bits and pieces that i do remember, i spent the night alternating between the pool, the karaoke place and the billiards place. i also remember crying myself out to sir larry, ms saza and julius, 3 of the people i totally trust and love in procurement. buti nlng kahit lasing pala ako i still choose the people i go to and cry on, proof that my self defense mechanism still works kahit high na ako sa alchohol =p.

and so as i write this today, i come to a few realizations:

1) i am still not over him (haay charity tanga)
2) i am generally classified as a cheerful person but i can say that at this stage in my life that im tired and that my thread of cheerfulness is running out..
3) i need answers soon. mahirap pag ndi mo alam ang purpose mo in life
4) ang tagal ng "in god's time"
5) i am a depressed drunk
6) always make sure to surround yourself with the people you trust when you're drinking para safe ka haha
7) workaholic pala ata tlga ako, as told by april, kahit pala lasing ako i kept rambling about a supplier hahahaha

and of course-
stay away from black label

xoxo